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  M:iE. KRAP

  Doctor, you will kill her.

  DR. PIOL'K

  I want a child, first off, to amuse

  me during my leisure hours, more

  and more brief and dreary; second, that it should receive the

  torch from my hands, when they

  can no longer bear it.

  M. KRAP

  That in essence is the advantage

  of sons.

  MME. KRAP

  But you will kill her.

  DR. PIOUK

  For a long time I have been debating this very question with your

  sister, Madame, quite as much

  before as since we were united.

  Isn 't that so, Marguerite?

  M:iE. PIOL'K

  You were just perfect.

  Dr. Piouk

  During those delightful, awful

  weeks preceding our vows, while

  we roamed hand in hand in the

  Campagna or, on the terraces of

  Tivoli, sought the advice of the

  moon , our conversation ran

  almost entirely on this very question. Isn ' t that so, Marguerite?

  MME. PIOL'K

  Almost solely, my darling.

  M�IE. KRAP

  (To M . Krap) What's the matter

  with you, there , sneering away in

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  your corner?

  M. KRAP

  I was thinking about the moon

  and you and me, seeking its

  advice.

  DR. PIOUK

  Engaged at last, we went though

  hideous periods and, speaking for

  myself, I would not want to relive

  them, not for anything.

  M. KRAP

  What can you do? Engaged humans are that way. I recall a certain night, in Robinson. Violette was ahead of me in the tree and I

  assure you -

  MME. KRAP

  Be quiet!

  DR. PIOUK

  And since our official, open

  cohabitation which, by the way,

  was blessed by His Holiness, how

  many nights have we not worn

  out, until cock crow, weighing the

  pros and cons, incapable of making a decision?

  M. KRAP

  You should have taken the plunge

  head first.

  DR. PIOUK

  That is what we did - (He takes

  out his memorandum-book and

  flips through it) - wait - on the

  Saturday night preceding Sunday

  last. (He turns a few pages, makes

  a note of something, puts the

  memorandum-book back in his

  pocket) And you see , we were sick

  and tired of splitting hairs. (Ex-

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  pressive gesture) Now we are

  waiting. (He gets up) And by the

  will of God.

  MME. KRAP

  What is the matter with you?

  DR. PIOUK

  The matter with me?

  MME. KRAP

  You are not going to leave us?

  M. KRAP

  I invited them for dinner. But they

  are all fired up to be alone.

  MME. KRAP

  To stay for dinner! Using what?

  M. KRAP

  I don 't know. Yesterday's lamb.

  MME. KRAP

  Lamb ! You mean mutton . What

  am I saying, mutton , ram, it smells

  of wool and coupling all over the

  house.

  DR. PIOUK

  You tempt me. Unfortunately we

  are expected somewhere.

  M. KRAP

  Put yourself in their place .

  MME. KRAP

  If I were fifty, no, that's too much ,

  forty years younger, Doctor, I

  would go with you to all the hot

  spots, in spite of the fact that

  strictly speaking you do not make

  much of an impression on me.

  But when you speak .. . ! (To M.

  Krap) What are you saying?

  M. KRAP

  Nothing. I was quivering.

  MME. PIOUK

  We are expected somewhere .

  DR. PIOUK

  Now let's not get carried away,

  dearest.

  MME. KRAP

  Let's go to the Terminus.

  DR. PIOUK

  Mlle . Skunk is not saying any-

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  thing.

  MllE. SKUNK

  What do you want me to say? I am

  waiting to know why I was summoned.

  MME. KRAP

  You \-ill come with us. We'll all get

  drunk.

  DR. PIOUK

  I just love blowouts.

  M. KRAP

  And your lower belly?

  MME. KRAP

  I will speak to the Doctor about it.

  Would you be so kind, Doctor?

  DR. PIOUK

  Not before the cheese, dear lady.

  MME. KRAP

  Look here, you rascal you !

  MME. PIOUK

  (To Mme. Krap) Your outing did

  you a world of good.

  (A silence)

  DR. PIOUK

  You will come, Mademoiselle?

  MllE. SKUNK

  I am free.

  MME. KRAP

  It's decided. The Terminus, in

  half an hour.

  (Everybody gets up, except M.

  Krap and Mlle . Skunk)

  DR. PIOUK

  (To M. Krap) See you soon . I have

  many things to tell you.

  M. KRAP

  Forgive me for not getting up, I

  have a slight -

  MME. KRAP

  I will show you out. Aren 't you

  coming, Olga?

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  I will go with you. I don ' t feel like

  changing.

  DR. PIOUK

  (To Mlle . Skunk) Now don 't let us

  down !

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  MME. KRAP

  (To Mlle . Skunk) As you like .

  (Exit Mme . Krap, Mme . and Dr.

  Piouk. A rather long silence)

  M. KRAP

  Open your jacket.

  Mu..E. SKUNK

  I am cold.

  M. KRAP

  That does not matter. Lift up your

  skirt. Again . There. Now keep still.

  Breathe in . (Mlle. Skunk takes her

  head in her hands, bends all the

  way over and weeps. She is shaken

  with sobs) God damn it! (The fit

  goes on ) Stop! (Mlle. Skunk is

  sobbing worse than ever) She

  cries like a scullion . (He raises his

  voice) You are ugly, Olga, you

  hear me, disgustingly ugly. We 're

  done for. (Mlle . Skunk calms

  down little by little, lifts up her

  worn-looking face, crosses her legs

  which grief had uncrossed, lifts up

  her skirt, etc . ) You are pretty!

  Who taught you to blubber as if

  - (He is loath to repeat himself)

  - as if - (It does not come to

  him) - as in life? You are forgetting where you are .

  Mu..E. SKU!K

  You know very well.

  M. KRAP

  What?

  MllE. SKUl'K

  Who taught me.

  M. KRAP

  That is not the question . And

  what about me, you think I don 't

  feel like howling? Only in my case,

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  if l - (He stops himself, struck by

  a horrible suspicion )
You never

  carried on like that in front of

  him needless to say?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  Of course not.

  M. KRAP

  You swear it?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  Yes.

  M. KRAP

  Then all is still not lost.

  MriE. SKUNK

  I dare say I should have.

  M. KRAP

  What?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  Wept in front of him, as in life .

  ( A silence)

  M. KRAP

  That would have gotten you

  nowhere .

  MLLE. SKUNK

  Maybe it would have.

  (A silence)

  M. KRAP

  I ' m not much longer for this

  world.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  You mustn ' t say that.

  M. KRAP

  I feel like getting it off my chest.

  ( Pause) For once. (Pause) With

  someone who does not hate me.

  (Pause) But maybe you do hate

  me.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  You know very well I don ' t.

  M. KRAP

  Why?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  I don ' t know.

  M. KRAP

  It is a thing I believe I have known

  only lately. (A silence ) Are you

  willing?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  I am such a blockhead.

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  SAMUEL BECKETT

  M. KRAP

  What does it matter?

  Mu.E. SKUNK

  I will not understand.

  M. KRAP

  You will think about it now and

  then?

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  Yes, of course, father.

  M. KRAP

  Father?

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  What? (Pause) I called you father?

  M. KRAP

  It did seem so.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  (Embarrassed) Oh! (Her lips

  tremble)

  M. KRAP

  Don ' t start in again. (Mlle. Skunk

  gets a grip on herself) You will

  weep when you are alone.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  Yes.

  (A silence)

  M. KRAP

  Don 't leave your post. I am searching for my ideas. They are scattered. As on a battlefield. (Pause) Attention . I am going to begin.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  Don ' t go too fast.

  M. KRAP

  ( In a doctrinal tone) The error is

  one of wanting to live . It is not

  possible. There is nothing to live

  off, in the life that is lent us. How

  stupid it all is!

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  Yes.

  M. KRAP

  Am I not right? I resume. It is a

  question of materials. Either there

  are too many and you do not

  know where to begin or there are

  too few and it is not worth your

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  while to begin. But all the same

  you do begin, afraid of doing

  nothing. Sometimes you even

  believe you are going to finish,

  that does happen . Then you see it

  is only a bluff. So you begin again,

  within the too much and the too

  little. Why can 't you make the best

  of a life that is only a bluff? It

  must be the divine origin. They

  tell you life is just that, beginning

  and beginning again. Not so, it is

  only the fear of doing nothing.

  Life is not possible. I am not

  putting it right.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  I do not understand anything.

  M. KRAP

  That imbecile of a doctor, with his

  abortions and his euthanasia. Did

  you hear him?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  I did not pay very much attention .

  M. KRAP

  A technician of the basest sort.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  I do not know what you mean

  when you speak of life and of

  living. Victor neither, I do not

  understand him at all. I am one

  who feels myself living. Why do

  you want that to have a meaning?

  M. KRAP

  My God ! wind it up and it also

  thinks.

  MILE. SKUNK

  You cannot say quite simply what

  you want?

  M. KRAP

  What I would have wan ted?

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  SAMUEL BECKETT

  MllE. SKUNK

  If you prefer.

  M. KRAP

  I would have wanted to be

  pleased, for a whole moment.

  MllE. SKUNK

  But pleased with what?

  M. KRAP

  With having been born , and with

  not yet having died. (A silence) I

  am finishing up quickly, for I have

  a feeling my wife draws near.

  MllE. SKUNK

  The end of life?

  M. KRAP

  My WIFE. That catastrophe.

  MllE. SKUNK

  But -

  M. KRAP

  One moment. Finding it therefore impossible to live and recoiling from the great cure, through a sense of decency, or through

  cowardice, or because of the very

  fact that he is not living, what can

  man do to avoid the oh so very

  discreet and unobtrusive insanity

  he has been taught to dread?

  (Pause ) He can pretend to be

  living and that others live . (Raises

  his hand) One moment. That is

  the solution , the ruse rather, I

  have been rallying round these

  many days. I do not say that it is

  the only one . But I am too old to

  be learning from my - no, I will

  mention no names. And there you

  have it. No, do not ask me any

  questions, for I cannot answer

  them. You are smiling, but that

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  doesn 't matter. You should smile

  more often . Except when you feel

  like it. Like me . (He unlocks his

  jaw in an enormous frozen smile .

  Mlle . Skunk recoils. End of smile)

  MllE. SKUNK

  You are horrid.

  M. KRAP

  Yes. And another thing.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  No, no, I have had enough .

  M. KRAP

  I ask only that you say yes.

  MllE. SKUNK

  Say yes? To what?

  M. KRAP

  To a little prayer.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  No, no, I cannot.

  M. KRAP

  Promise. I am dying. (A silence)

  You will pretend to live for my

  son 's sake .

  MllE. SKUNK

  Yes, yes, anything you want.

  M. KRAP

  So that he looks like he is living.

  MllE. SKUNK

  Yes, yes, I promise.

  M. KRAP

  You have missed the point.

  MllE. SKUNK

  I promise , I promise .

  (A silence)

  M. KRAP

  You have no desire to kiss me.

  (Mlle. Skunk starts to cry again) It

  doesn 't matter. You are right. And

  please do not start crying. Wait ­

  (Enter Mme. Krap)

  wait until you are alone .

  MME. KRAP

  You are ready, Olga?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  At once . (S
he gets up, goes)

  MME. KRAP

  Where are you going?

  MLLE. SKUNK

  To freshen up. (Exit)

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  SAM UEL BECKETI

  M .KRAP

  .

  She understood.

  MME .KRAP

  .

  Hurry up, Victor.

  M .KRAP

  .

  Victor? My name is not Victor.

  MME . .KRAP

  Hurry up. You haven't even

  shaved.

  M . .KRAP

  I am not going out.

  MME . .KRAP

  (Taking him by the arm) Out you

  go, get up.

  M . .KRAP

  Do not make me have to kill you,

  Violette .

  MME . .KRAP

  Kill me! You ! Kill me ! Me !

  (Laughs heartily)

  M .KRAP

  .

  (Taking a razor out of his pocket)

  Help me get up. (Mme. Krap

  draws back) I would have preferred (He tries to get up) to

  leave you to your cancer. More 's

  the pity. (He half-rises)

  MME . .KRAP

  (Moving back toward the door)

  You are completely mad !

  M . .KRAP

  (Still floundering around in his

  armchair) Once I ' m up it will be

  plain sailing.

  MME . .KRAP

  (Realizing he cannot get up) You

  stinking old cripple ! (Comes back

  toward him) To think that you

  frightened me even for a minute !

  M . .KRAP

  (Dropping back again) Not easy

  to sit up straight, even to kill your

  wife .

  MME . .KRAP

  Scoundrel!

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  M. KRAP

  Me too?

  MME. KRAP

  Scum !

  M. KRAP

  In any case, you 'll get what you

  deserve . I will cut your throat

  tonight, while you are snoring

  away.

  MME. KRAP

  (Terror-stricken at the prospects

  thus opened up and perhaps in

  particular by that of spending an

  anxious evening among her

  guests) Henri, don ' t be like that.

  Come to your senses! Think of all

  we have gone through together!

  To our great sorrow! Let us be

  friends.

  M. KRAP

  ( Graciously) Sit down for a

  minute or two. (Mme . Krap sits

  down) You saw Victor?

  MME. KRAP

  I swear that I did not. I have

  simply been walking. I was irritated. I have already told you that.

  M. KRAP

  What did he say to you?

  (Enter Mlle. Skunk)

  MME. KRAP

  Wait for me one minute, Olga. I

  am coming immediately.

  (Exit Mlle . Skunk)

  M. KRAP

  There is no need to admit that

  you are lying, nor to apologize for

  it. Simply tell me what he said to

  you.

  MME. KRAP

  (Straining) He told me that he

  did not want to see me any more .

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  M. KRAP

  And you, how were you?

  MME. KRAP

  How was I? I do not understand.

  M. KRAP

  You played the worried mother.