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  things made of glass.

  VICTOR

  Go away.

  GLAZIER

  Oh I ' m the type, you know, the

  minute I put my nose to the

  grindstone, nothing stops me any

  more. What can you do, that's me.

  VICTOR

  If I had the courage I would try to

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  throw you out.

  GlAZIER

  But you are afraid?

  VICTOR

  Yes.

  GlAZIER

  Of what?

  VICTOR

  Of pain.

  (A silence)

  GlAZIER

  You know, it is time that you

  explained yourself.

  VICTOR

  Explain myself?

  GlAZIER

  Well, yes. It cannot go o n like this.

  VICTOR

  But I am at a loss to understand.

  Besides, I have nothing to say to

  you. Who are you? I do not know

  you. Get lost. ( Pause) And out.

  GlAZIER

  Now, now, it would do you good to

  explain yourself a bit.

  VICTOR

  (With a howl) I tell you I am at a

  loss to understand!

  GlAZIER

  Explain yourself, no, I am not

  saying that, I did not put it right.

  Define yourself, there . It is time

  that you defined yourself a little.

  You are around like a sort of what is the way to say it? - like a

  sort of ooze . Like a sanies, there.

  Take on a little contour, for the

  love of God.

  VICTOR

  Why.

  GlAZIER

  So that all this may look like it

  holds water. You have been impossible up until now. Nobody will be

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  able to believe in it. Why, my

  friend, you are quite simply noth-

  ing, poor fellow.

  VICTOR

  It is perhaps time that somebody

  was quite simply nothing.

  GLAZIER

  But of course, but of course, I

  know, I have heard that routine .

  All that is nothing but words.

  Listen. When she - (Enter

  Michel) - when she told - you,

  what is it you want?

  MICHEL

  The bulb, Monsieur.

  GLAZIER

  So, put it in ! When she told you -

  MICHEL

  Where is it have to be put in,

  Monsieur?

  GLAZIER

  Where is it have to be put in ! Why

  in the - in the - in the whatsit,

  what else, not in your behind, in

  the - in the SOCKET, there we

  go, put it in the socket, and

  timeclock it, don 't half-cock it.

  (Pause) Deep down only words

  interest me. I am a poet who

  would rather not know it. (To

  Michel) So, you are getting there?

  MICHEL

  I am not getting there, Monsieur.

  GLAZIER

  You can call me papa right now, it

  is break time.

  MICHEL

  It is too high, papa.

  GLAZIER

  Get up on a chair.

  MICHEL

  There is no chair, papa.

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  GLAZIER

  That is true . Then get up on a

  box. (Michel drags the toolbox

  under the socket, gets up onto it,

  puts in the bulb, gets down ) Now

  turn on the light. (Michel goes to

  the door, turns on the switch, the

  bulb lights up) It is working.

  VICfOR

  (Half-rising) I am going.

  GLAZIER

  Turn it off. (Michel turns it off.

  Victor drops back on the bed)

  Come here. Bring the box. (The

  Glazier sits down on the box

  opposite Victor, puts his arm

  around Michel and props him up

  against him)

  MICHEL

  What is the matter with him, the

  Monsieur, papa?

  GLAZIER

  Who is telling you there is something the matter with him?

  MICHEL

  He looks funny.

  GLAZIER

  He is funny.

  MICHEL

  It is because his papa died?

  GLAZIER

  How do you know that his papa

  died?

  MICHEL

  It is the fat lady who said so .

  GLAZIER

  Maybe she lied. (Pause ) Take a

  good look at him, Michel.

  MICHEL

  Why is that, the lady, she would

  have lied, papa?

  GLAZIER

  So he would go back with her,

  don 't you know. Then home at

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  last they would have locked him

  up. (Pause) Take a good look at

  him . (Pause) You will not be like

  that when you grow up, how

  about it, Michel?

  MICHEL

  Oh no, papa.

  (Enter Madame Karl)

  MME. KARL

  (To the Glazier) You there, you

  still haven ' t finished?

  GLAZIER

  No, Madame, I still haven 't finished, and I am nowhere near

  finishing either, at the rate it is

  going.

  MME. KARL

  (To Victor) Here is the bill.

  (Moves up to the bed) Here .

  (Victor sluggishly takes the bill

  and holds it in his hand without

  looking at it. ) So you are leaving,

  yes or no? (A silence) You are ill?

  GLAZIER

  Let him think it over.

  VICTOR

  (Straining) Madame Karl, I ask

  only to remain here, but I must be

  left alone.

  GLAZIER

  They are holding open house

  here. It is not to be believed.

  Nobody even knocks.

  MME. KARL

  What can I do about it when they

  turn up with thugs. They all know

  he is here . He should just have

  not given out the address.

  GLAZIER

  Speaking of Tarzan, he is still on

  the landing?

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  MME. KARL

  No, he left.

  GlAZIER

  In the ambulance?

  MME. KARL

  No, he left all by himself on foot.

  GlAZIER

  (Rubbing his hands) Now for a

  little peace and quiet!

  VICTOR

  You would not have another

  room?

  MME. KARL

  What difference would that make?

  VICTOR

  You would be saying that I am no

  longer in your place and then I

  would be in the other room.

  MME. KARL

  All the rooms are taken.

  GlAZIER

  And why don 't you lock yourself

  in?

  VICTOR

  There is no lock.

  GlAZIER

  No lock! (To Mme . Karl) You are

  not ashamed, to rent out rooms

  without locks?

  MME. KARL

  He should not have taken it. No

  one forced him to .

  GlAZIER

  But you mean you don 't see which

  - what a wreck you are dealing


  with? (To Michel) Quick go get a

  lock.

  MICHEL

  Yes, papa.

  GlAZIER

  Monsieur.

  MICHEL

  Yes, Monsieur. (Exit)

  GlAZIER

  We are going to take care of it for

  you.

  VICTOR

  They'll break down the door.

  MME. KARL

  So? You are leaving yes or no?

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  GlAZIER

  But give him room to breathe, for

  Pete's sake !

  VICTOR

  I will tell you that in a little while .

  MME. KARL

  I am giving you an hour. Then I

  hang up the vacancy sign . (Exit)

  (A silence)

  GLAZIER

  You hadn 't thought of that.

  VICTOR

  Leave me alone. Do not say another word. Do what you have to

  do and go away.

  GlAZIER

  Yes, but first, tell me , you hadn 't

  thought of that?

  VICTOR

  Of course I had.

  GLAZIER

  Of having a lock installed?

  VICTOR

  But of course.

  GlAZIER

  But I am not talking about that! I

  mean you hadn ' t thought that the

  old girl could be lying when she

  told you your father was dead.

  VICTOR

  She did not lie .

  (A silence . Enter Michel)

  GlAZIER

  Where were you dawdling this

  time?

  MICHEL

  I did not dawdle, papa.

  GLAZIER

  You have the lock?

  MICHEL

  Yes, Monsieur.

  GLAZIER

  And two keys.

  MICHEL

  Yes, Monsieur.

  GLAZIER

  Good. (He gets up. To Victor) As

  for you, I have nothing more to

  say to you. I have seen amateurs,

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  but never anybody as bad as you.

  If you' d had your heart set on

  being hooted down , you could

  not have done better. The answers

  are put in your mouth and you

  come out with the exact opposite.

  Have you any more feeling for

  your mother? No. Or for your

  fiancee? No. Or for anybody? No.

  Only for yourself? None either.

  But what's with this bull? Feeling

  is what is needed, God damn it!

  Why, naturally you love your

  mother, why naturally you love

  your fiancee, but- BUT - you

  have duties, with regard to yourself, your work, science, the party,

  and who knows what else, which

  make of you a man apart, the

  being as exception , which forbid

  you the tender bonds of the

  family, of passion , fits you out in a

  mask mad7 of cellophane. Feeling! feeling, then going above and

  beyond, there you have what's

  needed. To sacrifice everything, to

  the idee fixe, to the priesthood !

  At that point you begin to live .

  Nobody is any longer of a mind to

  lynch you . You are the poor young

  man, the heroic young man . You

  are seen croaking like a dog at

  thirty, at thirty-three, drained by

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  your labors, by your discoveries,

  eaten away by radium, laid low by

  the sleepless nights, by the privations, died on mission, shot by

  Franco, shot by Stalin. Your

  praises are sung. Mother is dying

  of grief, girl friend as well, it

  doesn 't matter, men like you are

  needed, men with an ideal, above

  comforts, above pity, so that toffee

  may go on being sold. (Imitating

  him) No - no - she told me - I

  want nothing - I can do nothing

  - I feel nothing - I am nothing

  - leave me alone - go away -

  please - I implore you. Shit! (To

  Michel) The light. But what is

  your merit?

  VIcroR

  What?

  (Michel turns on the light)

  GlAZIER

  I am asking you what merit you

  have rotting in this hole?

  VIcroR

  I do not know.

  GlAZIER

  I do not know, I do not know. Ah !

  go hide i n a corner.

  VIcroR

  I would like to.

  GlAZIER

  (To Michel) Give me the tape

  measure.

  MICHEL

  But you are the one who has it,

  Monsieur.

  GlAZIER

  (Thunderingly) No, I am not the

  one who has it! (To Victor) Where

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  do you draw the courage and

  strength to evict old ladies, with

  the pokes of an umbrella?

  VICTOR

  I look out for my welfare, when I

  can .

  GlAZIER .

  Your welfare ! What welfare?

  VICTOR

  My freedom.

  GlAZIER

  Your freedom ! It is beautiful, your

  freedom. Freedom to do what?

  VICTOR

  To do nothing.

  GlAZIER

  (Controlling himself with difficulty, to Michel) The tape measure .

  MICHEL

  Here it is, Monsieur.

  GlAZIER

  What do we do? Do we finish the

  windowpane or do we do the lock

  or do we drop everything?

  MICHEL

  I am hungry, papa.

  GlAZIER

  You are hungry, papa. Then let's

  do the lock first. (He sets to work.

  A silence . He sings)

  Beautiful is France,

  Her destinies are blessed,

  (To Michel) Sing!

  GlAZIER

  (Together)

  MICHEL

  Beautiful is France,

  Her destinies are blessed,

  As one we advance,

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  SAMUEL BECKETI

  A s hers we live best.

  Over the mountains, o -

  (Enter Mademoiselle Skunk. She

  goes and stands in front of Victor,

  still seated on the bed)

  MllE. SKUNK

  Hello, Victor.

  VIGrOR

  Hello.

  MllE. SKU1'K

  Who is that man?

  VIcroR

  He is a glazier.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  What is he doing here?

  VIcroR

  He is repairing the windowpane.

  MllE. SKUNK

  You broke the windowpane?

  VIGrOR

  What?

  MllE. SKU1'K

  You are the one who broke the

  windowpane?

  VIGrOR

  Yes.

  MllE. SKUNK

  How? Why?

  VIcroR

  I do not know.

  GlAZIER

  With one of his brogues, Mademoiselle, and with malice aforethought. All hopes are allowed.

  MllE. SKUNK

  Why did you do that?

  VIcroR

  What?

  MllE. SKUNK

  Why did you break the windowpane?

  VIGrOR

  I do not know.

  GlAZIER

  Come, Michel. (Exit the Glazi
er

  and Michel)

  MllE. SKUr-.'K

  You do not want to kiss me?

  VIcroR

  No.

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  Mu..E. SKUNK

  I am not good-looking?

  VIcroR

  I do not know.

  Mu..E. SKUNK

  At one time you found me goodlooking. You wanted to sleep with

  me.

  VIcroR

  At one time.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  You do not want to sleep with me

  any more?

  VIcroR

  No.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  With whom then?

  VIcroR

  What?

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  Whom do you want to sleep with

  now.

  VIcroR

  With nobody.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  But it is not possible? (A silence)

  You are not being honest! (A

  silence) You know that I love you?

  VICfOR

  You have told me.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  You have no pity for me?

  VICfOR

  No .

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  You want me to go away.

  VIcroR

  Yes.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  And that I never come back any

  more?

  VICfOR

  Yes.

  (A silence . )

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  What has changed you so?

  VICfOR

  I do not know.

  Mll.E. SKUNK

  You were not like this before.

  What has made you like this?

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  VICTOR

  I do not know. ( Pause ) I have

  always been like this.

  MllE. SKUNK

  Oh no! It isn 't true. You loved me.

  You worked. You joked around

  with your father. You travelled.

  You -

  VICTOR

  That was bluffing. Besides,

  enough . Go away.

  (Enter the Glazier and Michel)

  GLAZIER

  I wanted to be discreet, tactful, a

  man of the world, but I see that it

  cannot be done. Hence I am

  taking up my work again. For

  every moment is precious. With

  your permission. (To Michel)

  Hand me the - (He finds it)

  Hold the door. (He starts working)

  MllE. SKUNK

  Your father is dead.

  VICTOR

  Jeanne told me.

  MllE. SKUNK

  Jeanne was here?

  VICTOR

  Yes.

  MllE. SKUNK

  When?

  VICTOR

  A little while ago.

  (A silence)

  MllE. SKUNK

  It makes no difference to you.

  VICTOR

  What?

  MLLE SKUNK

  That your father is dead? (A

  .

  silence) You know what he said to

  me last night? (A silence) He

  made me promise to look like I

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  was living so you too would look

  like you were living. I don 't understand. (A silence) This is what I 've come for, for you to explain to me

  what that means. (A silence) You

  understand what that means?

  VICfOR

  No.

  MLLE. SKUNK

  You don ' t even try.

  VICfOR